memories come from time to time
scratching the inner center of my soul, leaving bleeding wounds
from time to time loosing myself again and again in retrospections,
livining in the past and looking back
not able to see the future,
sometimes i loose my self.
not able to feel my present,
sometimes i losse my self.
i hope i will be able to close my eyes again,
someday.
forget the past to start over again.
watch my flight in the caleidoscope of life.
I stop keeping my self under control.
Yesterday i started a deep dive,
now you watch my endless fall.
Nothing more left to hold on,
I realize that there is nothing persistent.
Feelings of safety now all gone,
and memories of love seem all so distant.
everything reversed i used to believe in
we`re all just parts of random circumstances
despite the fact you`re leaving
i`ll keep my faith in tomorrows chances.
… i might stumble, but i may rise again,
as long there is a ground.
We all remain free, as long we keep on falling.
Freedom is just another word for letting go…
and now i am free
sun is arising over europe
covered by the dust of past years we gather.
still barely awake we stare at the bright gates of morning
to tear them down
picking like ravens in the fields of life,
searching for a sign of life in the dead soil.
Memories like shrapnels,
ripping the mind into pieces
we are fading constantly, but never vanish
until the time will close our eyes
forever
sorry guys for letting you wait, some dramatic changes occured to my life – so unfortunatelly i had no time to keep this site up to date.
Got today at least the Layout done, content will follow soon!
Imagine yourself running over fields, paths, roads or even streets – but watching yourself not from the usuall ankle – but as a sidescroller. Imagine yourself as the main actor of geeky Realworld – Virtual Game mix, like super mario – in Real Time! Sounds silly? You bet it would be!
Is it possible to build a machine which is calculating the future? I don’t mean predicting exactly what is going to happen next year or even tomorrow, but calculating the possibility of certain events in the future.
The Internet has now become a vast pool of information, growing every day with incredible speed. Understanding these masses of information and the relationsship among them, means to improve our understanding what happens in the present, what happened in the past or even predict the future.
Ok… this is it. I think this means to be the perfect start. I’ve always been into this dramatic kind of stuff and this seems all just too perfect. Starting everything all over – i mean, not only this site, but my whole life, literally – EVERYTHING! Moving into a city, where no one knows me, leaving everything far behind, uncertain future. tabula rasa… rien ne va plus.
Somehow scary, somehow exciting.